Drabble: Hurt

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Title: Hurt (1)
Rating: R
Pairing: VM/SB
Archive: rugbytackle
Author: Govi20
Summary: How can something wrong feel so good?

DISCLAIMER: This stories is FICTION; it’s NOT true and never happened. I’ve wrote this for fun , not for profit and don’t know these celebrities!

I saw you again last night. It still hurts. I don’t know if it will ever stop hurting. And I am to blame.
You once was my best friend and that should have been enough, except it wasn’t.
Somehow working in New Zealand was different from all the things I’ve done before, different in a breathtaking way.
And you were always there, the acclaimed leader of our own fellowship and I couldn’t take my eyes of you, because you were so intense and true.
So sure even on your uncertainties, never failing to do what was right in your eyes. And everyone admired and loved you for it. And so did I.
We bounded, because we had a lot in common, even though we aren’t much alike. Bounded in a way I never had before with a man.
Before I knew it I had to leave, we had a big party in your house and I stayed when everyone was gone. And I wasn’t drunk, because I knew I had to fly next day.
But I kept looking at you, knowing I wouldn’t see you for quite some time and it hurt.
You’re eyes looked straight into mine when I made the first move and you gave it to me all, without restraint.
It was so beautiful that night, more than I ever could have imagined. I know now what it can be like and making love will never be the same after that. Like writing poetry with bodies.
And then you said that.
You begged me for it and I gave it to you and the whole night turned into something terrifying.
Because I liked it and that scared the hell out of me.
You knew, but you never used that against me.
It just never happened again. Of course we’ve seen each other since and we manage to keep up.
But that’s not what you and I are about, is it Viggo?
I can still see it in your eyes, for I know it’s in mine too.
My inability to cope with your whispered words that night:
“Please hurt me, Sean”

Comments

[bijou69.livejournal.com]

Wonderful! Sad but beautiful.....Thanks for sharing :)

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thank you. So glad you like it!

[tearsandrainxxx.livejournal.com]

wow - intense stuff
like it ^__^

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Yes it is. Thank you for your comment!

[nurseowens.livejournal.com]

Pretty intense!

Like it a lot!

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[mooms.livejournal.com]

Wonderful little story, Govi, and very poignant at the end.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks dear Mooms!

[empressm.livejournal.com]

Like writing poetry with bodies.
This is so beautiful.

Hope there'll be a continuing part.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thank you, I don't know. Perhaps I'll be writing Viggo's POV

[nanathecat.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to read your fic again :)
I want to read the sequel to this story and the one from Viggo's POV.

I like this phrase:
"Like writing poetry with bodies."

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks again Nanathecat, I probably will continue this.

[rotpunkt.livejournal.com]

Very interesting for me - it seems to me they are at the point where they feel their "dark desires" but can´t integrate them into their relationship in a way that doesn´t scare them. I think two men like Sean and Viggo have to learn to accept this dark side and deal with it - perhaps even learn to "play" with it - because elseways it will get even more threatening (like it is here). And it is very good how you showed the contrast between Viggo´s outward appearance - so calm and in peace with himself and always knowing to do the right thing - and his inner "dark side"... because I think the more this dark aspect is "put away", the more dangerous it is.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks Rotpunkt. I think you're right.Though I wrote this as a stand alone drabble, I think it asks for a sequel,it doesn't feel complete.

[rotpunkt.livejournal.com]

I cannot resist to tell you that I would love to see them make progress in a sequel, to learn to handle their dark desires in a way that suits them both... (and why not, since they both share these desires, it´s not as if one of them wouldn´t want it...) - but don´t feel pressed. I know it´s sometimes not easy if readers have certain expectations. On the other hand, see it as passionate interest... But another development certainly would interest me, too.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

You do know how to tempt me, Rotpunkt. I think I will, also because I actually feel the same way. Thanks!