Hurt (part 4)

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Title: Hurt (4)

Pairing: SB/VM

Rating: R

Author: govi20

Archive: rugbytackleSummary: how can something wrong feel so good?

 

DISCLAIMER: This story is FICTION; is NOT true, and did NOT happen. I write these stories for fun, and don't make any profit whatsoever from them. Do not know these celebrities and am NOT making any claims about what they do (or enjoy) in real life.

 

 

Since I know you have a place here in L.A. I can’t help wondering if you’re going to turn up some night. I want to believe you will eventually Sean.
I know you’re not perfect, but you are not a coward.
I so clearly remember the first time we met, looking in those green eyes.
You are not a man of many words, shy even meeting new people.
I was stunned, could only look at you and my world changed.
I wanted you so much and I still do.
We really became good friends and for the time being that was good enough for me. I could wait, I would wait. Wait until you’d be ready.
And your divorce came through and you had this terrible time.
We spoke all night and got drunk together. Then I made that stupid joke about your ex wife and got you furious.
You grabbed me by the throat and shoved me on the couch, growling at me, your face so close to mine, your eyes shooting fire and oh yes…….
The alcohol evaporating, my body boneless and I was never more ready.
Looking in my eyes you shivered, came to your senses and apologized. You couldn’t get away fast enough Sean and I knew what you saw in my eyes.
That was the first time you ran for me and yourself.
I know this misperception you have of me as the strong man, the capable leader: it’s just my way to cope with life.
I don’t want your adoration, I just want you….
Because you’re so solid, so grounded and sane.
Do you have any idea what it is to be me? How I hardly can cope with every day life, because my brain is always working, busy almost 24 hours a day? How there seems so much to do and I can never get it done, or done right.
That night I needed it all and afterwards there was no more chaos. I felt complete, knowing that you could break me, but would mend me too.
We’re not perfect, but together we are.
I need you Sean and I won't let go.

Comments

[nanathecat.livejournal.com]

beautiful and sensitive confession of him. *sigh*

I love this:

"I was stunned, could only look at you and my world changed."

It tells me how much strong VM was fascinated by SB at first sight. Amazingly you have a good command of words!

And also this:

"That night I needed it all and afterwards there was no more chaos. I felt complete, knowing that you could break me, but would mend me too."

Now I know why he is so eager to SB, he needs him to be himself. Hope their relation is shaping up somehow.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks again for that great feedback!

Hello

[faramirgirl.livejournal.com]

OH that was lovely. Now we are seeing Viggo's point of view. I am waiting to read more.

Re: Hello

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thank you Faramirgirl. I try to give each their turn in order to make their problems clear.

[tearsandrainxxx.livejournal.com]

lovely! so sweet :D

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks for your comment!

[empressm.livejournal.com]

Oh, it's so beautiful. Please continue.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your kind words!

[mooms.livejournal.com]

I love the way you are developing this, Govi ! You are writing so sensitively and beautifully !

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the continuing support Mooms. This is so different from what I used to write, that I am still quite unsure when posting it.

[rotpunkt.livejournal.com]

Ahhh... I always love it when they fight and it turns - or almost turns - to love-making. Both is so close in the tension that´s between them.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Yeah: it feels like that's so much part of their relationship.

[bijou69.livejournal.com]

So great to read Viggo's POV. How I hardly can cope with every day life, because my brain is always working, busy almost 24 hours a day? </>
I can really second the despair about this.
I hope there'll be more......

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the comment. Yes, there'll be more: I can't stop yet, it's in my head constantly.