Hurt (part 6)

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Title: Hurt(6)

Pairing: SB/VM

Rating: R

Author: govi20

Archive: rugbytackle Summary: how can something wrong feel so good?

 

DISCLAIMER: This story is FICTION; is NOT true, and did NOT happen. I write these stories for fun, and don't make any profit whatsoever from them. Do not know these celebrities and am NOT making any claims about what they do (or enjoy) in real life.

 

 

I keep hearing this song on the radio. It is such a simple song and I don’t usually go for lyrics like that, but I guess I am a sentimental old sod.

I’ve tried to capture it in words, on canvas and I failed.

Till I listened to this song.

“Sometimes when we touch, the honesty is too much”

So simple and so true.

I could tell you that it won’t happen again, but that would be a lie, because it would.

It’s there and we can’t deny it.

Can’t you see there’s beauty in it Sean? Like being the ultimate gift to give.

Total surrender on both sides, total trust?

That’s what we had that night, total honesty, almost too beautiful to bear.

And I can’t settle for less. I am not even willing to try.

Because it would ruin the memory of that night and I will never let that happen.

I couldn’t live pretending it was a whim, something to laugh about afterwards.

We see each other quite often nowadays and we’re back to hugging when we meet.

But it’s all for show, all for our friends and the world.

Hugging is so much easier than looking in your eyes, seeing my desperation mirrored in yours.

I would do anything in the world to get you back, but I cannot and will not lie to you.

I just won’t settle for less.

Comments

[bijou69.livejournal.com]

Ah.....damn! SO full of despair.....and beautifully written! Thank you!

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thank you again for your comment! I really appreciate that.

[nanathecat.livejournal.com]

Wow new chapter! I must read it now but I have to cook dinner for my family... *sigh* I'll be back later!

[nanathecat.livejournal.com]

I made a brief visit to read your new installment.
These lines deeply touch my heart: Hugging is so much easier than looking in your eyes, seeing my desperation mirrored in yours.

You are great govi20, well-succeeded in figure out kind of fresh and eloquent images in such a short ficlet!

Now I have to go for dinner. ;)

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks again Nanathecat!

[fawsley.livejournal.com]

Oh you know how much I'm enjoying these ficlets!
How much more can you put them through?
Poor Vig who understands so well the beauty and purity of what he needs.
Poor poor Sean who is just so screwed up.
Poor us going through it all with them every time!
But wonderful you for giving the gift of this angst to us.
Please let Sean understand one day - though I'm still evilly happy for it to take a while!

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thank you Fawsley. I think I am nearing the end of this. But I am still not sure what kind of ending.
It's not an easy write, but I feel very much involved in it myself, so I am very grateful for the good feedback here.

[mooms.livejournal.com]

I am still loving this storyline, Govi ! I like the way you are letting it unfold slowly with alternating points of view.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

It's unfolding very slowly, but quite persistant in my mind Mooms. Thanks again for your support, it helps me getting on.

[rotpunkt.livejournal.com]

Doesn´t that song go on: "I want to hold you until I die, until we both break down and cry..." - would fit very well. Loved Viggo´s thoughts here.

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Yes it does Rotpunkt. But I am always afraid of overdoing it, so I just used those two lines. But I agree, the song fits very well.

[tearsandrainxxx.livejournal.com]

ohhhhhhhhhhhh, gourgeous!

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks for your comment!