WHITE HEAT, part 2 - Combustion 6/6

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Title: White Heat, part 2 - Combustion 6/6
Pairing: Sean/Viggo
Warnings: AU, RPS
Rating: R - PG-13 (PG-13 this one)
Archiving: Rugbytackling, viggo_cursive
Authors: mooms (Viggo) govi20 (Sean)
A.N. :  In this story Viggo is a photographer and Sean has taken over the welding company of his father.
Seguel to White Heat - Ignition
Part 1: http://govi20.livejournal.com/61774.html#cutid1
Part 2: http://govi20.livejournal.com/62048.html#cutid1
Part 3: http://govi20.livejournal.com/62292.html#cutid1
Part 4: http://govi20.livejournal.com/63593.html#cutid1
Part 5: http://govi20.livejournal.com/63857.html#cutid1

DISCLAIMER: we don't know these men, it never happened, it's all just in our heads! 

6/6

~Viggo~

When he asks me to tie him up I understand. It will be easier for him to take this final step, if he can feel that the control is out of his hands. The idea is also an incredible turn-on for me, as is the amount of trust he is showing me.

I remember seeing a coil of rope in the kitchen, hanging on the back of the door, so I hurry down and grab it.

Returning to the bedroom, I kiss him to reassure him and quickly tie his hands to the head-board, which conveniently has a fretwork pattern cut out of it.

I want him facing me, because I need to see his face, when we do this. I know that I won’t be able to avoid hurting him completely, but I need to be able to see his eyes. I need and want this so much, but I would never break his trust and if I feel for one second that he wants me to stop, I will.

Now I take my time worshipping his body and taking him to the point, where he is nearly incoherent. I prepare him carefully and finally, when neither of us can stand it a moment longer. I begin to slide into his tight heat.

I pause, as he gasps a little and squeezes his eyes shut in pain, soothing and calming him, until he opens his eyes again and I see that we can go on. Among the things I say to him, I tell him that I love him, but I don’t know if he is too far gone to hear that.

I take it very slowly, using all the self-control I have, but finally, I am able to slide myself up to the hilt into his body and once I see that he has accepted the intrusion, I begin to move and he moves with me,

Angling my thrusts, I find his prostate and now he is begging me and driving me on. I speed up and grip his cock, taking him with me to an ecstatic release, which leaves us both exhausted and fighting to regain our breath.

That was so good, so special, Sean, and I’ve revealed my soul to you, but now,  how do you feel and where do we go from here ?

~Sean~

When we’re able to breathe in a normal way again, and Viggo gets rid of the condom and unties me, we look at each other.

“How do you feel Sean? Are you ok?

To be honest I am not sure how I feel. The way I grew up, the friends I have, the life I live, all telling me what we did here is wrong. But somewhere inside I know it wasn’t wrong. It felt good and true and I can’t honestly regret what’s happened.

The questions I asked myself when leaving school like: ” Is that what life’s about? There should be more than that” : well, those questions are answered. In a way I never expected, but still answered.

“Sean?”

”Yeah, I am good.”

He looks very worried and I reach out and pull him close to me. Strange how familiar his body already feels. With a shock I realize he’ll be gone soon, how lonesome I will be. And before I even think of it I blurt it out.

“I will miss you terribly Vig, I think I have fallen in love with you.”

I don’t think I ever felt so vulnerable, but I can breathe easier now that I’ve said it. It’s the truth and he has the right to know. So he knows what he’s got himself into. I don’t think I can get back to “casual” with him. Not any more.

He leans back to look at my face and smiles.

” I love you too Sean and I already told you so, but I’ll tell you again and again. I am sure we’ll find a way to make it work. Now, let’s nap.”

He snuggles up to me, his arm over my body and I just lie there, feeling a bit sore, but good.

He’s asleep almost immediately, his breath tickling my chest, while I lie there and try to find words for my state of mind.

“In love”, that’s what it is, I think before I doze off.

~Viggo~

I wake in the morning, wrapped around Sean for the second time and the surge of pleasure I feel is instantly countered by a pang of regret that I have to get back to London by tonight and fly home to California early tomorrow .

Just as I have found Sean, we have to be parted. Life sure is a bitch !

But he let me take him and he told me he thought he was falling in love with me, so this can’t end here.

Then he wakes up and we make love again, slowly and lazily, befitting Sunday morning. I let Sean fuck me again, as I know he is still sore from last night. I believe the only way forward for us is as an equal partnership, in this as in everything.

After a shared shower and breakfast, we talk about our future. I ask Sean about visiting me in California and he tenses up again, but I coax out of him the confession that he has a phobia about flying and has in fact never done so. He paces up and down the kitchen a while, then he tells me that he will have therapy (he says the word as if it is an infectious disease) and try to overcome his fear, if it is the only way he can visit me.

I can’t resist hugging him tightly and kissing him again. It is a big thing for a man like Sean to contemplate taking such a step and I acknowledge this to him.

In the meantime, I agree that I will come back and see him here in around a month. He is clearly very keen for this to happen, but we don’t get into the fine details about whether and when he will tell his family and friends about us. He is very insistent, though that next time, I will be staying with him in his home.

We are both reluctant to say goodbye, but it has to be done, as I am facing a long drive of several hours to London.

Once again I find myself driving away and looking back at Sean and this time I have a lump in my throat and tears pricking at the back of my eyelids. I hope with every fibre of my being that we will find a way to be together. We cannot lose this …………….

~Sean~ 


In the bright light of the morning, yesterday night seems a bit unreal, but Viggo wrapped around me feels real enough. The thought of him leaving so soon makes me hold him tight and we make love, sweet and good.

After we shower, we go down to have breakfast. Viggo suddenly asks me to visit him in California. I freeze: it’s not that I don’t want to, I’ve always dreamt of going there, but the thought of flying terrifies me. Something I inherited from my father I guess. When I was a kid we went to Spain every summer, but always by coach. He simply refused to fly.

Viggo won’t let go until I tell him and then I take a decision: I will go into therapy. A friend of mine got rid of his fear, doing that, so I’ll do it. Even though I don’t like this therapy thing. I can’t expect Viggo to come here every time, can I?

In the mean while he will be coming back within a month. Even though I don’t know if I am ready to tell my family and friends within a month, I insist on him staying with me then. I want to have him there, in my own place, want him into that part of my life too.

We say goodbye, and even though I know I will see him again soon, it feels wrong. I watch him drive away, my normal sturdiness shocked . To be honest: I feel miserable. It will be a long month. But he’ll be back and I’ll be waiting for him.

To be concluded in Part 3 Fusion

 

Comments

[alex-quine.livejournal.com]

Many thanks for posting. Looking forward to Fusion a lot.

[mooms.livejournal.com]

Thank you for reading and commenting. Fusion is all written and will follow straight away.

[painted-horse.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to see that "Fusion" is already written! I dearly want to see those two safely established with each other. Never thought I'd say that, but this couple can make me downright sappy! Thanks for the lovely pictures I have in my head now!

[mooms.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your feedback. It won't all run smoothly for the boys in Fusion, though ! I am going away for two weeks to the US to stay with a friend from the Obsession Viggo forum, but Gov will post in my absence.

[rotpunkt.livejournal.com]

Lovely story, the perfect summer novel...:)

[govi20.livejournal.com]

Thanks rotpunkt, that's a nice idea a summer novel!